A lot of people don’t get why I miss high school so much. In high school, I found my place. I met the right people who supported me. I made my grades. Life was good even though it didn’t seem like it. It’s true; you don’t realize the importance of something until you lose it. That’s what happened in college. I didn’t make my grades. I didn’t find my place. I met the right and wrong people. It was overwhelming to say the least. I have never been so lost in my life before. I thought I had it all planned out without surprise. Boy, am I wrong.

I finally found my place at Davis. Although my relationship with it isn’t as close as I wish it to be, it’s something. It’s a spark at least. I know good things are ahead of me. This past week, I have been spending all my time with VSA and it’s good to know that there are people like me here. To be honest, I am beyond tired because of VSA due to this week, but I never felt happier. I come home at 1 AM, but it’s worth it. I’m not another student who walks the quad and is all brains. I realized that grades are not everything. By no means am I saying that it isn’t important, but there is so much more to an individual. I realized this at my scholarship interview as I watch students walk the same path as me. Sure, grades are important and they look darn good on paper, but what else is there to you? I judge these student but I was once one of them. I never want to go back there.

Through VSA, I found some good friends who understand what I go through because we are all going through it together. Even though I’m making new friends, I will never forget my old ones. I would not be here without them. Even until this day, they still support me and they have no idea how much I appreciate it. For my show, I have sell tickets and the sad part is that they are all sold to my friends from high school. That’s right; only one UCD student bought one and he was from my high school. It’s crazy! I thought we would all go our different ways and find new friends and such, but it’s not like that. I’m so excited for tomorrow, not just for the show, but to see my friends who are making the effort to see me do what I love to do. Omg, I’m on the verge of crying. Thank you so much guys! You are amazing. I hope to do my best to put on a great show for you and thank you for support VSA and our philanthropy, Children of Vietnam.

When true colors are revealed

It’s really scary. You thought you know that person well, but he or she proves you otherwise. This is why I don’t like to get attach to anyone and this is why I don’t like having a lot of friends. They end up disappointing you. I don’t expect anything from my friends but respect. Actually, I expect this from everybody even though it is only ideal. Respect me and I’ll respect you; it’s simple. Please do not disrespect me right in front of me. That is the worst. For one, it’s rude. Seriously, whatever happened to the phrase, “If you don’t have anything nice to say, then don’t say anything?” Criticisms and opinions are one thing, but being flat out disrespectful is another.

I give people the benefit of the doubt regardless of what I hear about them from others. I personally think you should get to know them and make your own judgment. Well, today, I made my judgment and let’s just say, it’s not a good one. Honestly, I’m not even surprise. You eventually become the people you spend your time with. Scary stuff though.

I’m glad that we left on a good note.